Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Counting my blessings

I know that I have posted about my insecurities when it comes to my husband.  Yeah, I have a suspicious mind (do I hear Elvis in the background?).  But, you should never look a gift horse in the mouth.

Last week my husband took my daughter to Wisconsin to pick up her stuff and her car.  Well, a few days before this we had a situation go on that was not a good thing.  However, things had been resolved (or so I thought).  Mid-way through the time he was gone, I talked to him and because of things he said, I knew that he was planning to leave me once he came home. 

Sure enough, the night he came home we talked and it was his intention to leave.  A lot of things were brought out that had not been said before and we talked about them.  The end result is that we have decided to work on a lot of things.

We need to start having some time together just the two of us.  We both love the littles, but we need time as a couple to recharge us.  We will talk about things that bother us, when they bother us and not bottle them up to explode at a later time.  And I will work on overcoming my fear of ridicule to become more affectionate toward the man I wish to spend the rest of my life beside.  At this point, I feel I should make it known just how lucky I feel that I am in my life.

I have been married to two other men, three different times before.  Yes, I was stupid enough to think that one of those men would change and married him a second time…don’t judge, believe me I paid for it.  I was in a long-distance relationship that I was thinking very hard on when I met the Lycan.  I have a lot to thank a pirate for!

The Lycan is 19 years my junior.  Yep, at one point I was twice his age.  But, except for some time at the very beginning, this has not been an issue for us.  Some people think that our age difference is an obstacle to be overcome.  I don’t see that we have any more problems than the average married couple. 

My husband is a stay-at-home-dad and I feel that my sons are the luckiest littles on earth.  They get to spend their day with Daddy and play, laugh, talk with him.  Most kids don’t get that kind of time with dad.  He places those little guys above all else on this planet and would step into of a bullet for them.  Yes, he does discipline them and there are times when they really, REALLY get on his nerves, but then there is not a parent out there who has not had their kids do the same thing to them. 

I work nights and have been asked many times how I can sleep with the boys at home during the day.  I have no problems; they know when Mommy goes to bed not to bother her.  They tuck me into bed in the morning and give me kisses and hugs. 

My husband washes clothes, cooks, and takes care of the yard.  He keeps my truck filled with gas so I don’t have to do it when I get off in the morning.  He takes her in for oil changes and repairs when needed.  He washes her whenever he takes her to town.  My truck wants for nothing with him taking care of her.

I know that we have had some rough times in the past, but what couple hasn’t?  I love him more than I can ever begin to express.